"Art is coming face to face with yourself."

-Jackson Pollock

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

A Maltese is Like a Cloud Floating Through the Sky

Cameron Seistrup
3-16-2001 to 3-1-2011

I apologize for not posting in awhile, but there is good reason. I have been spending a lot of time with our beloved little Cameron (look for him in one of my very early posts, he was my studio mate). He has been a very sick little doggy. He was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. They thought with proper meds he would be with us another two, maybe even three or four years. However, after 7 months and increasing his meds just a few days ago, he suddenly took a turn for the worse last evening. He tried to tough it out, bless him, it was very difficult. I was lucky to have been blessed to be there with him to ease his pain as much as possible. He managed to give me his last few sweet tiny kisses, he was so weak. You see the Maltese breed's sole purpose in life is to please his Master, and THAT he did, right to the end. His loss is devastating to say the least. He's my one and only dog I've ever had.

For some odd reason, this song has been playing over and over in my car the past few weeks. I was drawn to it, but at the time I didn't realize why. I now know it would prepare me for what was to come. I got in my empty, quiet car for the long drive home from the emergency hospital with out him and turned the key and this song was playing. I've listened to it a zillion times today, re-playing the past 24 hrs in my head, as if I could do something to change the days event into something other than what had taken place.

by JEM

Go to bed, everything's alright
Don't know the whole world's changing
As you sleep through the night
Wake up slowly and it's a different world

Hear the news and the floods begin
Screams so loud but only felt within
Heart is shattered
The pieces can't be found

I feel your pain
I wrote this song for you, for you
You will make it, you will make it through
I promise you, he would want you to

Months go by still living in a daze
Don't know what you've done
With the past seven days
Soul is numb and life is like a dream

Helping hands but you push them away
How could they understand
Don't wanna share your pain
Afraid to heal 'cause that would mean goodbye

I feel your pain
I wrote this song for you, for you
You will make it, you will make it through
I promise you, he would want you to

One day sunlight hits a photograph
And it makes you smile
The memories dance around you now
And they make you smile

You're not alone you'll never be
Just like the stars they oversee
And they whisper to you you're still, you're still
You're still alive

I feel your pain
I wrote this song for you, for you
You will make it, you will make it through
I promise you, he would want you to

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow

I am the sun ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die

I need everyone's prayers and hugs. One more favor, stop what you are doing right now and pick up your companion and look deep into his or her eyes and tell them just how much you love and appreciate them. They are special gifts from above to love and cherish every minute of everyday. Wish I could have the last 24 hrs back to tell him even MORE than I did, just how much I loved him.

To my little Cameron, when I look to the sky on each beautiful cloud filled day, you will always be floating along with me in my heart... forever my sweet boy!
'Til we meet again.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Happy Holidays Friends and Family!

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas and you stop opening presents and listen." -Bobby age 7

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Journalfest 2010

Carrie Dunsworth-Todd, my friend and housemate. This photo was taken with her camera, thanks for sharing your awesome photos with me, I just love this one. I will "carrie" these memories of Journalfest with me forever my friend. Can't wait till 2011. Catch her spread in the Nov./Dec. issue of Somerset Artful Blogging magazine, on news stands now.

This is the view I saw everyday walking to class. The snow capped mountains are not always visable due to weather I was told.

Officer's Housing on the ground's of Fort Worden

Enjoying a "somoore" at the beach bonfire and journaling night. (Photo courtesy of Carrie Dunsworth-Todd, she's an awesome photographer by the way!)

Fort Worden is the most inspiring place for a person to find their muse. Deer are everywhere, you can walk right up to them as they are feeding. One afternoon after lunch four racoons ran right past me.

My "Oz in a Box" journal I made with Katherine England. She rocks! I have had the pleasure of taking two classes with her this year, this and a mosaic class. Loved both, great teaching style Katherine, and an awesome human being.

This is some of the beautiful results of Orly Avineri's class, Mapping Me...Yummy!

This is a grid of each class members "ugly art", we were to cut loose and make it ugly, to get over the fear of perfection. We grouped them together for a shot and decided they weren't so bad, we kind of liked them all together. I am currently working in my journal on Liesel Lund's collaging and painting techniques from this class, Wild and Joyful Journaling. What a sweetie Liesel is. (love my scarf Liesel)

SURREALIZED, a techno group from Seattle WA. You're going to be hearing alot about this dynamic duo in the future, they are amazing. They send me places I haven't been while I'm journaling. I got one of their CD's and am trying to wear it out!

That's me under there...

Just some of the spectacular costumes, sorry I didn't get your name but you were lovely.

Tiphoni and Mushroom(can't remember your name darn it) you and all of the crew were sooo accomodating and helpful!

It's the talented Judy Wise under there, so good to see her doing well!

The enchanting Melanie Christie

Fabulously frightening

More awesomeness, sorry no name.

Julianna wore this all day not just at the party, so fun!

Andrew and Trista(steam punkers)

Journaling Party, oh what a night...

Melanie Christe, working on her "Through the Rabbit Hole" book from Ingrid Dijkers class, love this Melanie!

Sorry I didn't get your name, but what a haunted awesome page!)

Julianna Coles and her "brew"d.

Orly Avineri and friend.

There's Judy Wise, Liesel Lund and Katie Kendrick

Lisa Cheney Jorgensen presenting a collaborative post it note class drawing to Teesha. How cool is that!

Goodbye Washington, see you in April...

Saturday, October 9, 2010

The Big Island of Hawaii and Kauai

Our favorite place to stay on Kauai, The Grand Hyatt Resort and Spa.

Romantic Tommy Bahama dinner and a sunset with my sweetheart, priceless.

Didn't want to leave our Paradise away from home...we'll be back in January.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Recycled Couture at the Portland Airport

Look closely for things like cat litter bags, plastic forks and spoons, used coffee filters, Venetian blinds, Royal Crown purple felt draw string bags etc. http://www.junktofunk.org/

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Thursday, August 26, 2010

ROD Journal #3

Another one finished before vacation, enjoy!

See ya when I come back. I'll post Oregon Coast photos of our trip.